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re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By Tansey
On Tue Jun 03, 2014 11:01 AM
^If you are sure they are honey bees, I agree. I did this when we had a bee problem. The head of the local beekeepers group came to get them, and he brought me a jar of cranberry honey as thanks! We live in cranberry country and he puts many of his hives out on the cranberry bogs. If they are not honeybees, no beekeeper is going to be interested.
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By Nyssasisticmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Tue Jun 03, 2014 03:27 PM
Thanks for the tips! The person from our pest control company said he could kill the hive and then remove it... for a small fee of $250. However, he seemed pretty honest and was hesitant to do that, so instead he recommended a few places to look and I made a facebook appeal. I have apparently forgotten that a lot of MY friends keep bees! One of the advantages to living in a place where country, city, and suburbs are mixed together.

So I went to the store last night and bought a few essentials (Milk, bread, breakfast cereal, etc) and the cashier snickered as I stuck the gallon tub of ice cream on the conveyor belt right after I had put a gigantic jar of pickles up there. With only 31 days until my due date, heck yes I am going to OWN the pregnancy stereotype because I DO crave both pickles and ice cream regularly. Another out of control craving I'm dealing with right now is the need for ANY sort of fresh fruit- apples, strawberries, grapes... nomnomnom. What weirds me out most is that I'm almost repulsed by the prospect of Chocolate, though. I love Chocolate. Well, normal me does. Right now? Let me eat grapes!
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By Nyssasisticmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Wed Jun 04, 2014 02:44 PM
Successfully had a day out with the kids! Story time at the library, lunch, and then out to the splash park. No meltdowns, no acting out, Nada. Life is good. We are now hanging out at my parents, who live a short distance from the splash park.

Aside from bits here and there, my laundry room is done! Woohoo!

So yes, good day. :)
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn (karma: 2)
By Nyssasisticmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Fri Jun 06, 2014 10:17 PM
Laundry room is as done as it will be pre-baby. I'm very happy with how it turned out.

The first 2 are "before" pics, everything else "afters". Hubby painted the cat and the bird as gifts for me :)

36 weeks today. I need to pack a hospital bag, but I DID get the car seat cover washed and put back together, so that's waiting right by the door. With my laundry room not hogging all of my nesting desires, I see a LOT of baby prep happening in the next few weeks.

Just got home from a party with everyone from my dance school, and goodness I love those people. The students are such fantastic kids/young adults and the parents are amazing! I feel so lucky to have them all in my life.

Today, my mom in law came over and cleaned my garage in anticipation of a garage sale happening next week (she insisted on me just relaxing inside), and then took all of the kids so I could have some "me" time. That lady is wonderful!

And on that note, it's time doe some sleep. Have a good weekend, y'all!
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By leogirlPremium member
On Sat Jun 07, 2014 08:49 AM
Love the cat and bird stencils, and the color you chose. Great job! Isn't it nice to have an area to do a chore like laundry in a place that makes you smile? I have a laundry closet rather than a room, but my husband re-did it a year ago and I still get a feeling of satisfaction when I open the door!
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By CaffeinePremium member
On Mon Jun 09, 2014 05:13 AM
The laundry room looks fantastic! (I totally had that lino in the "before" drawer in my old place. It did not date well.) Great colour, and I love the cat and bird stencils your DH painted for you. Did you change the benchtops as well or does it just look new next to the bright white and vivid blue?
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By Nyssasisticmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Wed Jun 11, 2014 04:01 PM
Thanks, you guys! I'm happy with how it turned out. Caffeine, only the painting bit is different; I haven't changed anything else (yet). I hope to redo those countertops and floors eventually, but the focus of this was to pretty much just finish up what I had started.

The last few days have been really up-and-down for me. Monday I didn't do much of anything and skipped out on a friend's bachelorette party because I was so tired I didn't want to deal with the hour and a half traverse in rush hour traffic. It would have been fun, but the risk of getting too tired while driving to pay proper attention to the roads was just too great.

Yesterday we acquired a few of Hubby's Father's Day gifts, and I meant to take them to the playground at the mall only to find it filled with toddlers. Charlotte enjoyed it, but Digory and Evie were bored out of their minds since they had to be extra careful around the small children. I promised them that we could go to a "real" park after lunch to make up for it, but when we arrived at our local playground we found out that the entire play structure had been removed and all that was left was a swingset. Super odd.

Today we were going to go to storytime again, but getting the kids out the door was just about as bad as pulling teeth, and after getting all the kids into the car it was just way too late to hope to get there before it ended. We decided to go to the Botanic Gardens and do some picture taking for another bit of their father's day gift to their dad. I hope to post pictures when I'm done with it!

The rest of this week is pretty full too, and all I want to do is take a nap. 23 days until my due date and I'm DEFINITELY feeling it.
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By Nyssasisticmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Mon Jun 16, 2014 10:14 AM
Crazy weekend! Friday we went to a wedding and it was beautiful. This family knows how to party, so we all had a fantastic time.

Saturday and Sunday we more or less hosted a garage sale: all of our family that lives in places that their HOA doesn't allow garage sales brought their stuff over. Having that many family members together for an extended time brought on a bit of drama, but it was still not bad. The hardest part for me was the heat, although it's only been 90°ish (F) at the hottest parts of the day.

Today I'm getting the oil changed in the car and helping my mom go dress shopping for an event she has. I'm glad that, although we have a hard time agreeing on a LOT of stuff, that were can still find ways to spend time together without causing friction.

18 days to go and I feel it. My poor feet are swollen and I'm even going the way of the cankle. I've never had swelling this bad before, but I've also never been pregnant this late in the year (the other kiddos were born in February and May), when it's been this warm outside. I am VERY thankful that this summer has been a teensy bit more mild than normal. It's mid-june and we haven't hit the 100's yet, which is nice.

Sitting at the car dealership right now and letting the kids watch land before time. The dealership has a room just for kids, and it's fantastic. We can close the door and let them watch TV or play without disturbing the other customers in the waiting area. I really do appreciate it, especially at times like this when I am uber tired and don't want to make my kids sit still and be quiet for hours on end.
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By Nyssasisticmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Wed Jun 18, 2014 09:21 AM
A false alarm yesterday meant that Hubby and I spent our date night in the hospital. I keep telling myself better safe than sorry, but I feel bad.

In totally unrelated news, I'm finally getting around to packing my hospital bag today.
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn (karma: 1)
By LlamaLlamaDuckmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Wed Jun 18, 2014 11:56 AM
I never actually got around to packing my hospital bag with the twins...LOL... turns out it was better that way... less crap to carry with me, I way over packed with Teresa
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By Wicked_Elphabamember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Wed Jun 18, 2014 04:20 PM
Nyssasistic wrote:

A false alarm yesterday meant that Hubby and I spent our date night in the hospital. I keep telling myself better safe than sorry, but I feel bad.

In totally unrelated news, I'm finally getting around to packing my hospital bag today.


No home birth this time around? I thought you were having another home birth.
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By Nyssasisticmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Wed Jun 18, 2014 05:40 PM
Due to having amazing insurance, we were planning on doing a birth center and that fell through. I talked about it in this post.

I REALLY like the group of midwives I'm with now- they're exactly what I appreciate in a midwife, and I'm very confident and comfortable with them and how they run things.
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By LlamaLlamaDuckmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Thu Jun 19, 2014 07:27 AM
I'm jealous that you guys have birth centres. We just got one for all of Ontario. Of course not that I could have used one. I got screwed over by the one midwife in the practice who was at best an idiot... And well wouldn't have been able to continue with one to begin with.

If I by some miracle were to get pregnant again I think I would fight for a home birth. But we all know that isn't happening
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By Nyssasisticmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Thu Jun 19, 2014 09:25 AM
That's crazy- I couldn't imagine a single birth center serving an entire area like that. I bet people try to get their names on the waiting list before they're even pregnant!

I know y'all have a different model of healthcare there- do you normally see a midwife in-hospital and only see an OB/GYN in certain cases? In the US, the majority of pregnant patients have an OB that they use the entire time. Midwives are still considered a bit fringe-y, and using a birth center is becoming more common, but home births are definitely considered an absolutely crazy idea and in some states home births and birth centers are illegal. I've never heard of insurance covering a home birth, so you'd pay completely out of pocket for that. Sometimes you can get lucky and find a birth center that's covered by insurance, but it's still pretty rare. I'm lucky enough that we have a group of midwives that work out of a hospital- it's the only group that does it in the area. Because it's in the hospital, our insurance will cover practically all of it.

I also discovered that the hospital's NICU is on the way to Labor and Delivery. Walking down that hall the other day threw me back to 12-year-old me, when we visited the NICU every day for almost 5 months after my youngest brother was born. Definitely a moment filled with almost every emotion on the spectrum. That was such a weird, difficult, and oftentimes confusing period in my life.
Acting like mother to my 4 younger siblings at home while my mom was hospitalized before my brother was born and then when she spent the majority of her days at the NICU after the birth. Cooking, cleaning, homeschooling, caring for their boo-boos and trying to keep some semblance of routine. Potty training my 2 year old sister, and deciding to give up on weaning her off bottles. Waking up at 5am every morning to make my dad breakfast. Making sure the kids were bathed and dress by 6pm sharp to visit the hospital every night, first visiting my mom and then visiting my brother.
Trying to get along with my peers, but not being able to really relate to them. Developing a crush on a 14 year old who also visited his baby sister in the NICU nightly. He had frosted N*Sync hair and wore glasses. His name was Charles. I never got the courage to talk to him, but I spent so much time daydreaming about him. I was SURE he could understand what I was going through and that, one day I would muster enough chutzpah to talk to him and we would realize we were kindred spirits, fall madly in love, and watch our baby siblings grow up together. His family abruptly stopped visiting, and i knew better than to ask. I knew that his sister hadn't been healthy enough to go home yet.
My family did everything we could to maintain a semblance of normal, but everything was so Topsy turvy. We all maintained a facade of positivity, but I could tell that, at times, my younger brother was doing badly and we had to prepare a contingency plan in case we were called in to say goodbye at any moment. The grass in our backyard grew taller than 5'3 me, and the only reason our front yard didn't resemble a jungle too was because we were close to our neighbors and they'd mow it for us, knowing what was going on.

Okay, enough reminiscing. Hopefully I'll never have to go into that part of the hospital again. Going into that waiting room would be too much.
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By LlamaLlamaDuckmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Thu Jun 19, 2014 11:54 AM
I had anxiety walking past the elevators going up to the nicu when I was visiting my dad in the hospital.

Majority of women here see ob's very few see midwives. There is actually a waitlist to get in with a midwife in most cases... you literally have to call the minute you get a positve test. I got in alright, but got a false positive high blood pressure reading because she refused to use the right sized cuff. I had 3 doctors afterwards verify this but she failed to believe me. I have never had high blood pressure... but because of that they really monitored me and I had to see another specialist for my non existant high blood pressure. Because of the whole confusion I didn't see a doctor till 18 weeks... and I didn't find out twins till 20 weeks. What should have indeed happened with the midwife was shared care, she was wrong in dismissing me as a patient.

We just got a second midwifery practice who works out the hospital.

I guess because health care is publicly funded things are very different here. We don't have birthing tubs at hosptials or anything like that either.

I hate the fact that childbirth has become so unnecessarily medical. I think that in most cases doctors need to back off. I refused the genetic testing and my doctor still sent me with the paperwork... thanks but no thanks. She actually had the nerve to ask me if I was that catholic... if you know me you know this is totally the opposite. I just don't see the need for it for myself.

But that is the end of my rant.
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By Nyssasisticmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Mon Jun 23, 2014 06:06 PM
Lol! Wow. I've gotten preliminary genetic testing done pretty much with all the kids, just so if there was anything wrong we would have time to prepare, but I completely understand not feeling the need for it.

The OB in charge of the midwives I'm using would not be my first choice, so I'm hoping I don't have to deal with any complications because I'd be risked out to him. He's a little too c-section happy for my taste.

I agree that childbirth has become a lot more medical than it needs to be, but I also understand the POV of doctors that ascribe to a more clinical approach. While midwives really focus in on the wellbeing of their client, doctors don't have the time/resources to really have that type of relationship with their patients. In essence, most doctors see a pregnant woman as a walking liability, and that's fair. Birth is a fantastic thing, but when it does go wrong it usually happens fast and the consequences can be devastating.

I've had consistent and fairly strong contractions for about a day now, but they're still 8-10 minutes apart. Since they are so strong they're pretty annoying, but oh well. I have an appointment tomorrow where they'll be able to tell me what's going on. After that, I think I'm going to swing by the chiropractor's and make sure everything is lined up and ready to go. Have I ever mentioned that I'm no good at waiting games?
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By CaffeinePremium member
On Mon Jun 23, 2014 06:29 PM
Thinking of you, Nyssa, and hope you don't have to wait too much longer. Best of luck!
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By LlamaLlamaDuckmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Tue Jun 24, 2014 11:32 AM
I was very lucky with the doctor I had with Teresa. She was a regular family doctor that did deliveries. She was fantastic and very hands off. I actually found the OB that I had with the twins (high risk OB) to be very good as well. She too was pretty hands off. I had a crap load of ultrasounds with the twins, but that is pretty standard for them to do weekly ultrasounds.

Here midwives have their own practices and do not practice with an OB in charge (I guess our training is different?).
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn (karma: 1)
By Nyssasisticmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Fri Jun 27, 2014 09:51 AM
In the hospital, we have CNM's (certified nurse midwives), but a midwife can also be a CPM (certified professional midwife), however they usually have their own practices. Each state has different regulations regarding midwives, and some have made midwives and home birth entirely illegal.

So I'm embroiled in a Facebook confrontation with a crazy-do group of "abolitionists"- people that make the pro-life movement look like a bunch of vanilla " save the babies" hippies. They left a business card with a picture of a 10-ish week fetus' severed foot and my kiddos saw it and flipped a little. I called them out on it and their reaction has been interesting to say the least. "Trolling for life" isn't something I'm okay with or can get behind.

Speaking of not yet born babies, I'm 39 weeks today! Last night I had a solid 2 hours of contractions that were 5-7 minutes apart, and then they just stopped. I was disappointed, but hopefully they did SOME sort of work.

No big plans today. Yesterday was quiet too, but the two days before were pretty crazy. Hubby is home sick, so I may take the kids out and afford him some peace and quiet at some point in time.

I can't believe June is already almost over. I thought this month would feel like it lasted forever, but it's actually passed me by like a blur!
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By TheMidlakeMusemember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Fri Jun 27, 2014 10:48 AM
I saw your comments (FB, why you gotta be so creepay?!) and I totally agree with you. It's a cheap shock tactic that doesn't change hearts or minds and unfortunately your kiddos are collateral damage...and the people who distributed them don't much seem to care. :(
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn (karma: 3)
By Nyssasisticmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Tue Jul 01, 2014 06:30 PM
I found it awesome that I had friends from pretty much every religious background voicing their support. goes to show that we as humans may not agree on everything, but we CAN agree that those westboro-style people were crazies.

After dinner, Evelyn (who got no dessert because she didn't eat her vegetables) came up to me, upset about it saying "momma, I'm just a nobody". That broke my heart, but I *clearly* remember saying that EXACT thing to my mom when I was 4. Although my mother probably had the best intentions, her response made me feel like I was wrong to feel that way and the feeling I left with was shame (for not realizing how wrong I was, according to what my mom said) and embarrassment for voicing such a stupid opinion. I know it sounds goofy, but that interaction had a LOT of impact on 4-year-old me and I remember it very clearly.
Tonight, I answered in the way that 4-year-old me needed my mom to answer. Evie is very much like me temperament and attitude wise, and when I told her "it is totally okay to feel like that sometimes. You are important to me, and the way you feel is important too", she started crying and told me that sometimes she just needs me close by. And then she started telling me that " it's okay to feel sad, or mad, or scared sometimes because I know you will love me no matter what my feelings are" and I nearly burst into tears.

Sometimes, having children can heal the deep, dark wounds you don't even acknowledge any more. And when you're given the opportunity to clearly make their lives better than yours as a child, there is a small and beautiful sense of triumph. I may not be a perfect parent, but tonight I feel like I won a small battle against my own demons and was able to truly help my child so maybe she won't have to go through the exact same struggles I did growing up.
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By Nyssasisticmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Thu Jul 03, 2014 04:27 PM
Well, baby has dropped as far as possible without dropping OUT (Lol), I'm dilated to a 2 and almost completely effaced, and I had a membrane sweep today. The midwife said she would be surprised if I didn't have a baby this weekend.

No consistent contractions right now, but we'll see what happens.

Other than that, we have a July 4th party tomorrow and tonight the kiddos and I are ordering pizza as Hubby is having a game night with friends. Hubby is SUCH an extrovert, and I'm glad he's had the opportunity to make a lot of friends that he's easily able to relate to.

My house is so clean right now it's ridiculous. And it makes me a teensy bit upset because that means there's not really a whole lot more I can do to satisfy the "must get ready for baby" itch. Now if THAT isn't the most ridiculous problem in the world to have, I don't know what is!
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By Wicked_Elphabamember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Fri Jul 04, 2014 04:10 PM
Nyssasistic wrote:

Well, baby has dropped as far as possible without dropping OUT (Lol), I'm dilated to a 2 and almost completely effaced, and I had a membrane sweep today. The midwife said she would be surprised if I didn't have a baby this weekend.

No consistent contractions right now, but we'll see what happens.

Other than that, we have a July 4th party tomorrow and tonight the kiddos and I are ordering pizza as Hubby is having a game night with friends. Hubby is SUCH an extrovert, and I'm glad he's had the opportunity to make a lot of friends that he's easily able to relate to.

My house is so clean right now it's ridiculous. And it makes me a teensy bit upset because that means there's not really a whole lot more I can do to satisfy the "must get ready for baby" itch. Now if THAT isn't the most ridiculous problem in the world to have, I don't know what is!


If you lived near me, I'd totally invite you over to clean our house. LOL
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn
By Nyssasisticmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Sun Jul 06, 2014 11:43 AM
Lol, unfortunately cleaning for other people doesn't really help with my desire to get MY nest baby-ready, or I would have already gotten to work on my friends and family's houses ;)

No signs of labor. I'll go into the midwife's tomorrow to see what they want to do. DEFINITELY feeling very, very done with my pregnancy today.
re: Keep My Eyes to Serve, My Hands to Learn (karma: 2)
By Nyssasisticmember has saluted, click to view salute photosPremium member
On Tue Jul 08, 2014 09:55 AM
I hate the world and everyone in it and if another person makes a joke about getting the baby out by squeezing/scaring/whatever stupidly inane thing they think is clever, I may go on a hormonal rampage that would put the God of the Old Testament to shame.

And yes. I'm still pregnant. Yes, I know my "time is up". No, I don't know "what that baby is still doing in there" and yes, I know I am unbelievably huge.

Any other questions?
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